Three Sixty-Five Days of Loneliness

i attended a medichem (unilab cns division) activity in crowne plaza. gary v was their guest. he's good! then he sang "sana maulit muli".

it made me think of what happened a year ago. did i really make the right decision? maybe i did, maybe i did not.

looking back on the three years of what happened to me...it made me smile and it made cry. smile because i know in my own special way i know i gave my love to someone and i know that i made him happy. cry because we had, like any other relationships, fair share of roller-coaster ride. on the first few months of our relationship, we would argue about little things and some big things also. then as we progress in the relationship we would still argue on some things that we have argued already. i would always ask for another chance and he would always say yes.

we went out with his friends, my friends, his family, and my family. it's like the perfect homo relationship, in which our relationship is accepted in both our families and peers. to some people it is like hitting the jackpot but for it's not like that. yes, i must say i'm lucky for having been raised in a liberal family but i have to also act to the expectations of the people around us. but still we are lucky to have each other.

still we fought...until july 21, 2010 came. we again fought, i was called a monster (correct me if i'm wrong), and i won't deny that, but i would have preferred a bad fairy instead. then i saw something posted in facebook...happiness is... i asked why he posted it, he said because he is looking for the meaning of happiness. we argued that night. me, i asked again for another chance, he gave it. but as we slept together holding hands, my mind was asking me...can i stay in this relationship for another year? should i stay? should i give him the freedom that he wants?

i woke in the morning with a decision. i packed my things, 1 laptop bag, 1 traveling bag, 1 backpack, and 1 paper bag. i was about to leave when he woke up. he asked me if i can bring all my things....i did not say yes. what i said was "nandito na ung simcard (on the top of it was a ring) at kukunin ko lahat ng gamit ko sa sabado. i felt as if i was choked. as i rode the jeepney, i sent him a message "HAPPINESS IS FREEDOM AND I'M GIVING IT TO YOU".

now as my journey to my 365 days of loneliness...i have come to a point wherein i find myself back to my old self again but i know some things have changed. but still as mew (love of siam character) said "I AM FRIGHTENINGLY LONELY"

now a new question has entered my mind, will i ever meet someone like him, with the same accepting family and peers? or will i stay lonely?

but for now i am preparing myself in my trek for the next 365 days of my life....

waiting....

after the "delubyo" a.k.a. ondoy, my sister and i successfully fetched my tatay, who was stranded in the airport for the night. we arrived at our house in imus and then texted my hunny. we had a few exchanges of messages and then i called but there was no answer. i decided to take a bath. he called me but i missed it. i texted him back telling him that i took a bath.

12 hours after he hasn't texted or replied. i am worried na....

Global Warming Part 2

this post related to my post last summer entitled "my summer and global warming".

we should be aware of our climate, weather, and environment. global warming is synonymous to global warning. we have to change our ways.

INSPIRED

from the movie and i loved you so...(pero di ko siya napanood...narinig ko lang sa the buzz!!!)

"you may have loved him longer but that doesn't mean i loved him less."

at long last....

at long last i got what i want...but what i want was not the end of it.

it's the start of something new....(HSM)

INSPIRED...

i just heard this from the radio and i just want to share this quote

"LOVING SOMEONE GIVES YOU STRENGTH BUT GIVING SOMEONE YOUR LOVE GIVES YOU COURAGE."

My Summer and Global Warming

Medyo matagal akong nawala... Ngayon ko lang naisipang magsulat ulit kasi medyo busy ako. Hehehe!

Anyways, what is the correlation between my summer and global warming??? Hmmm... Let's go first about my summer. A week before Holy Week, me and my hunny, with his friends decided to go to Pagudpud. I fell in love with Ilocos Norte, especially the windmills of Bangui. It was hot...syempre summer noh! Then on Holy Week, we went to Iba, Zambales. Mainit pa din.

Then on the month of May (May 8-12), we went to Malaybalay City in Bukidnon. Masaya, kasi nandun family ko. Thanks for my hunny for the trip. Then I suddenly felt the global warming that people were talking about. It's a mountainous province but it's hot. Before, when we were kids, we have to wear thick jackets because we can't tolerate the coldness of the environment. But now, it's warm. Global warming na talaga!

I think we have to be aware now about our environment. Grabeh!!!

`Yun lang.... =) XOXO!!!